Monthly Archives: December 2014

Christmas Is Over Again

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This is how I felt by Xmas Day, I am so thankful it is over again, I have failed xmas for over 20 years and this year was no different. I tried starting my recovery to close to xmas, so there was no way that it was going to work, but im proud to say that by Boxing Day I started eating properly instead of continuing to binge. Two days in and im feeling good

Yesterday I had the worst hangover and today was the first day that I could exercise in the past two months, my knee is still sore but im allowed to slowly start exercising again

My little dog can now be back in my room, I was too scared to have her around  after a binge, my mind is calm and ready to become healthy

Its Time

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I binged yesterday, when I binge I drink alot of Coca Cola and it doesnt go well with my bipolar meds. Its happened a few times after bingeing but it took me alittle while to put two and two together, I jump up in my sleep, I did it twice last night, one time I nearly knocked myself out by hitting my head and the second time I either scared my little chihuahua or actually hit her, she screamed and that broke my heart

Just Breathe …

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Yesterday my mood was very low, I felt ok when I was around my dogs, but when I wasnt, I felt empty inside, I havent felt like that in awhile. I was overtired and after 5 weeks, im fed up with not being able to walk, I still have two weeks to go before I see the surgeon again

So instead of still trying to do so much, im resting, taking time out to “just breathe

Im still going really well with my recovery from bingeing, better than ever before, so that makes me happy, but I need to try look after my mental health since I cant exercise and my obsession with food has lowered, I need to keep my mind busy as boredom is a killer