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Day 8 on Vyvanse

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I am still loving this medication, I havent thought about bingeing once, usually its at least a few times a day, im very impressed with it, the only side effect ive had is waking up alittle early but thats ok as im enjoying living right now. I have a calm mind but sometimes I do need to sit, close my eyes a rest for a few minutes, but thats just because ive overdone things and need a break

I dont ever remember feeling this way, I know I will still have ups and downs, im just enjoying the calmness right now

Life Is ….

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I started on the new Binge Eating Disorder  Medication (Vyvanse) four days ago the difference in my mind is amazing, the only side affect  is a dry mouth which isnt too bad, they dont seem to have any trouble with my bopolar meds either. It is also helping me with obsessive thoughts, I am so happy that I spoke to my doctor about this medication

I dont feel drugged out, my mind is calm, it isnt racing like before, I havent felt so good in a very long time, Its been 7 days since my last binge and I feel extremely  hopeful

Very Excited and Hopeful

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I went to see my doctor about this article I read the other day he said I could try it. I had to order it and will start using it the day after tomorrow, quite expensive $140 for 30 tabs but after 20+ years of bingeing and depression if it works or helps then it will be worth it

New Binge Eating Medication

Anxiety, Oh How I Hate You

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Anxiety, Oh How I Hate You

It has been two weeks since I binged last which is great for me, the new meds are working for now (thank goodness). My problem is, I have to have an operation on my knee this week and I drink energy drinks and im trying to cut down ( I also need to cut down on them) Ive been doing it gradually and have been doing great untill I got down to my desired amount, now my mind thinks im trying to torture it. I no longer have a calm mind, even meditation doesnt work

I decided toturing myself wasnt the best way to go about it, so I and alittle extra today and see if I can restart the process again tomorrow

Why oh why do we torture ourselves so much ….

Giving My Mind A Holiday

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Giving My Mind A Holiday

Ive started on a (not so new) medication, I don’t advocate using appetite suppressants for people with eating disorders, I only use them when im in dire straits. I don’t use them to stop hunger as im never really hungry, I eat because I know I have too,  I use them (as the title says) to give my mind a holiday. My Bi-Polar meds help a lot, but with any addiction, if you slip up its so hard to get back on track, sometimes I really wish I was an alcoholic (no offense)  as at least I could live without my addiction, problem is, we cant live without food but I need to look at my binge eating as alcoholism, I cant just binge once and get back on track, you enter a downward spiral and cant get back again, so I need not to binge at all

This time will be different (im sure we have all told ourselves that a million times) im using them to learn how to eat normally, I don’t have any other choice, there aren’t many other options for me, if I cant learn to help myself, who will? no-one can, its all up to ME

Today I am thankful for: my calm mind

There is always something good in each day: the unconditional love from my dogs

Time to Live, Not Just Exist

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Time to Live, Not Just Exist

I have been existing for nearly 25 years, I want to live, I want to be mindful of life, I want stop worrying about food. That is what life has become for me, was it a good day or a bad day? due to my food intake, I want it to be over, I need to learn how to eat properly, for most people its a normal thing, but for some of us its what our life has become. For me it isn’t about being skinny, Ive been like this for so long I don’t know any other way, but time to re-learn

I just want to be happy and healthy, is that too much to ask for?. Ive been recently diagnosed with OCD and Bi-Polar and I think it was the best thing to happen to me, reason being, Ive spent years suffering in silence, now the medication helps me and I don’t need to suffer as much, yes its still a daily struggle, but my mind can be calm and that is a heavenly feeling.

I’m not the type of person to whinge or complain and it doesn’t matter is no-one reads this blog, I just believe that writing will help ME