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Life Is ….



I started on the new Binge Eating Disorder  Medication (Vyvanse) four days ago the difference in my mind is amazing, the only side affect  is a dry mouth which isnt too bad, they dont seem to have any trouble with my bopolar meds either. It is also helping me with obsessive thoughts, I am so happy that I spoke to my doctor about this medication

I dont feel drugged out, my mind is calm, it isnt racing like before, I havent felt so good in a very long time, Its been 7 days since my last binge and I feel extremely  hopeful

Just Breathe …



Yesterday my mood was very low, I felt ok when I was around my dogs, but when I wasnt, I felt empty inside, I havent felt like that in awhile. I was overtired and after 5 weeks, im fed up with not being able to walk, I still have two weeks to go before I see the surgeon again

So instead of still trying to do so much, im resting, taking time out to “just breathe

Im still going really well with my recovery from bingeing, better than ever before, so that makes me happy, but I need to try look after my mental health since I cant exercise and my obsession with food has lowered, I need to keep my mind busy as boredom is a killer



I am thankful that Australia  doesnt have Thanksgiving, the thought of having to put up with family that you cant stand is bad enough at Christmas, let alone twice in as many weeks. The same with food, its stressful enough at Christmas

Altho, I am thankful for my health, my sanity, my 5th day of recovery, my dogs etc

I would wish you all a happy thanksgiving but I think it would be best saying good luck, hope you all survive the day without too much stress

Recovery Day Three



My mind is calm, the hangover headache has gone. I would feel much better if I could exercise but that is still weeks away from happening, maybe until after Christmas. This has been the longest ever break from exercise, its good for my mind also but I need to try harder to keep sane

I am very proud of myself, today I didnt give in to my OCD, I cut my dogs hair (she is a long haired Chihuahua) its summer here in Australia and she gets very hot, I had hair all over me, up my nose etc, it was driving me insane and I would usually binge when my OCD was out of control, but I didnt, I just had a shower.

Ive stopped being so obsessed  with recovery and just trying to be chilled about it

My New Journey


You cant start the next chapter of your life if you continue to re-read the last one – Unknown 

Ive been on a bender this past week and this quote has been stuck in my mind .. Im back on track today even though I have the worst bingeing hangover. I had been doing so well, im not happy with myself for not being strong enough and giving in to my addiction, its not long to Christmas, I dont want to binge this year as I have for so many many years, I want to enjoy it

This year has gone so quick and even though I have been bingeing I have done really well this year,  so I cant forget that

Here we go again, im not down or depressed, even though ive been going around in circles like this for over 20 years im looking at this as a brand new journey and learn from my mistakes