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Annoyed – Breathe In, Breathe Out ….

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I went to see my doctor about 6 weeks ago to plead with him to go on Vyvanse (medication to help stop binge eating). When I saw him I asked him to google it and he did,  I asked him to check if the drug doesnt interfere with my Bipolar meds and he did, he said that it didnt …. fast forward a month, I went to get a new script as it was still working great, he noticed that Vyvanse was an amphetamine and said to me “that is why you are feeling so great” and gave me another script for it

Fast forward a week, I went to see him for a Bipolar med script and after not bingeing for 33 days, I had binged two days in a row and asked him for a stronger mg Vyvanse just to get back on track again, welllllllll, he googled Vyvanse and told me it was an amphetamine and I need to go off it straight away and that it interferes with my antidepressant and he is  worried about the side affects and that I might drop dead BUT if another doctor prescribed Vyvanse to me then that would be ok (after telling me that I was like a daughter to him) if he was so worried about me then he, wouldnt want me to have them at all … he just wants to save himself (they were just extreme side effects). He told me to go home and meditate, that should help … that pissed me off

He left a message with my sister this evening saying he has a new script for me, a diet drug (WTF?)  … after telling him a billion times that I have a binge eating disorder and I want to recover, it isnt about losing weight

Ive enquired about going  back to an eating disorders clinic, im waiting to hear back from them … its not about going off Vyvanse, I just want someone to listen and medicate me with the right medications

Sorry for the rant, I just needed to get it out

Day 8 on Vyvanse

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I am still loving this medication, I havent thought about bingeing once, usually its at least a few times a day, im very impressed with it, the only side effect ive had is waking up alittle early but thats ok as im enjoying living right now. I have a calm mind but sometimes I do need to sit, close my eyes a rest for a few minutes, but thats just because ive overdone things and need a break

I dont ever remember feeling this way, I know I will still have ups and downs, im just enjoying the calmness right now

Life Is ….

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I started on the new Binge Eating Disorder  Medication (Vyvanse) four days ago the difference in my mind is amazing, the only side affect  is a dry mouth which isnt too bad, they dont seem to have any trouble with my bopolar meds either. It is also helping me with obsessive thoughts, I am so happy that I spoke to my doctor about this medication

I dont feel drugged out, my mind is calm, it isnt racing like before, I havent felt so good in a very long time, Its been 7 days since my last binge and I feel extremely  hopeful

Very Excited and Hopeful

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I went to see my doctor about this article I read the other day he said I could try it. I had to order it and will start using it the day after tomorrow, quite expensive $140 for 30 tabs but after 20+ years of bingeing and depression if it works or helps then it will be worth it

New Binge Eating Medication

Mind Full or Mindful?

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Mind Full or Mindful?

I try my hardest to be mindful, I even have a mindfulness tattoo on my hand to remind me, the last few days my mind has been so full of crap that I get tension headaches. I hate headaches more than anything … so today I have been practicing mindfulness and my mind has been somewhat calm again. I am a firm believer in meditation and/or deep breathing, it can help so much if we do it regularly, even just 5 minutes a day can help

It Feels Great To Accomplish ….

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It Feels Great To Accomplish ….

Something that you set out to do, I rarely have this feeling as I start so many things and never finish them or take years to do so. While my eating problems have been both good and bad, ive  finished a few things that I started long ago. When I was young we instead of having photos we had slides, ive been meaning to scan them onto my PC for three years, it took me two hours to get it done (what was stopping me from doing it years ago?)

Ive been saying I was going to get my learners permit for many years, but I blamed not being able to study for not doing it. I started studying five days ago, I went for the test today and aced it. These things that I failed at beforehand kept going through my mind and I kept telling myself that I never follow through with anything so why bother trying

Now im looking forward to learning to drive and now that im able to walk again I want to get my health in order, my binges are few and far between but exercise helps in keeping me sane,I never realised how much it helped until I wasnt allowed to walk for two months

I have a hangover from my last binge, but im looking forward to the challenge and see if my brain is going to work with me this time with my health .. ive decided to try harder this time

Happy New Year, looking forward to see what I can accomplish in 2015

Christmas Is Over Again

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This is how I felt by Xmas Day, I am so thankful it is over again, I have failed xmas for over 20 years and this year was no different. I tried starting my recovery to close to xmas, so there was no way that it was going to work, but im proud to say that by Boxing Day I started eating properly instead of continuing to binge. Two days in and im feeling good

Yesterday I had the worst hangover and today was the first day that I could exercise in the past two months, my knee is still sore but im allowed to slowly start exercising again

My little dog can now be back in my room, I was too scared to have her around  after a binge, my mind is calm and ready to become healthy